I'm Not Gonna Spend The Night Trying To Name This Dam Post

So, I had a realization tonight. When I first started this blog, back in my first trimester with my now 5 month old, I was so eager to be heard, and to be perfect. I worked hard on each post, trying to convey some giant point, and stand apart from the gazillion other mommy bloggers. I was not writing freely, for fear of being too simple, not grammatically correct, or just plain boring. I was so worried about what my readers thought of me, and more so, my writing. There is so much competition out there, and so many styles of blogging, that I didn't want to be labeled. I wanted to be sophisticated, politically correct, and most of all, I wanted to be gratified with each post. It was SO fucking draining. That is what I realized tonight. That is the reason I gave up my blog. I am witness to a number of bloggers, who are religious about posting every other day, and I simply can not imagine doing that, if I were to expend the kind of energy I did back then. So forgive me if the posts to come are short or boring, or piss you off. I am on a mission to let go of your expectations and just be me. I'm really not even sure why I am back here, attempting this post, after so many months. All things in my life happen that way, so I'm gonna just go with it. And, I'm not even gonna re-read this. Fuck, yeah, I guess, just one time...